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Ten years gone.

This week marked ten years since I graduated from high school. Sometimes cliches are true - time really does fly. Ten years is a long time - over a third of my life - but the years since walking across that stage have flown by to the point where it's almost impossible to think about everything that has happened in between now and then. I've earned two degrees and work in the field in which I studied. I've lived in Philly, Richmond, and Chicago. I've traveled. I've voted. I've loved. I've lost.  The period after high school has brought about tremendous change for myself and my peers, as it should. From teenager, to adolescent, to young adult, to a [somewhat] mature adult, I've progressed through the most impactful years of my life and have learned about myself and others on my path to becoming who I'm destined to be. Peers change. Interests change. Jobs change. Residences change. Outlooks change. We all change - it's how we evolve. But...

Seeking marriage counseling.

My head and my heart have been married since birth,  but like a disagreeable couple they fight a lot. My heart is emotional and straightforward ,  but my head -  my head is indecisive. Sometimes I wish my heart had a voice which my head couldn't filter so I could describe in tongue so fanciful the emotions I feel. Truth and affection disseminate from my heart,  but are held captive by the schadenfreude of my head. My heart wants what my heart wants, but my head revels in a torturous game of logical chess. If I am to believe I should speak my mind,  somewhere between my heart and my head  the message I carry  gets caught in my throat . Maybe my head is jealous of my heart  because my heart acts simply on feeling;  on the volition of love and emotion -  never a player in the mind's games. Maybe my head is afraid of my heart's desires because my head doesn't want to get hurt. Where as the heart can move...